( but while we're talking about responsibility... perhaps now is the time to, ah, rip the bandaid off, so to speak. )
And what of the fracturing of the Avengers?
( he leaves it open ended, to give tony room to explain his end of things. honestly, thor leaves for five minutes and the children start fighting each other, then he comes back and literally has to set his world on fire. )
[Tony pauses. He dearly wants to know what Steve's told Thor - he can't play this like he did with Bruce (something that will inevitably come back to bite him in the ass later) and spin things like he was totally in the right the whole time.]
If you found out that your best friend had been keeping a secret about the man who killed your parents - that he was protecting his friend from the consequences - how would you feel? Not after you had time to think about it, but in the heat of the moment. After watching a video of your parents' murder, which you had always thought was accidental.
[Thor, he thinks, might understand the emotion behind it in a way Bruce wouldn't. Bruce is ruled by logic and reason, while Thor is more emotional. He understands the bonds of family, even family you don't always get along with.]
So you wanted vengeance. Justice. No matter the cost. It seems you and I aren't so different after all, Stark.
( he imagines, in the same situation, he would have reacted similarly. (in any situation regarding loki, he would still react similarly now.) what a bunch of hot-headed fools. )
But if it's my judgement you're worried about, you needn't be.
( he just thinks his friends are being dumb mortals? so par for the course, really. please just (kiss and) make up. )
That's what I tell myself when I look at my muscles in the mirror every morning.
[ha, ha.]
I made a lot of stupid choices. One of them left Rhodey paralyzed from the waist down. I tried pretty hard to kill Barnes. I still think I was right about the Accords, but- not about how I handled it. Any of it. My mom wouldn't have wanted vengeance. My dad used to know him, back in the war. They were friends. And I took one look at him here, on this ship, and- he was just a tool. He's a broken man who was brainwashed, and all the people who were really responsible for my parents' deaths are dead. I'll never get that justice. I'm still mad about it, because who the fuck wouldn't be? My mother was killed for being in the wrong place at the wrong time.
But none of it was worth it, not with the threat Thanos poses now. Of course, hindsight is twenty-twenty.
[It's easier to tell Thor about it, he discovers in the process of typing. Someone who wasn't on the same planet at the time, someone without an emotional stake in any of it. Someone who's close enough to understand him and his feelings. Tony's spent a lot of time wallowing in self-pity, but that also requires a lot of reflection. He's read the files on Barnes now, and he understands more. And now that he knows what's at stake, it's hard to not realize the magnitude of what went wrong.]
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It was supposed to PROTECT the planet, okay? Which is a very responsible thing to do.
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( but while we're talking about responsibility... perhaps now is the time to, ah, rip the bandaid off, so to speak. )
And what of the fracturing of the Avengers?
( he leaves it open ended, to give tony room to explain his end of things. honestly, thor leaves for five minutes and the children start fighting each other, then he comes back and literally has to set his world on fire. )
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If you found out that your best friend had been keeping a secret about the man who killed your parents - that he was protecting his friend from the consequences - how would you feel? Not after you had time to think about it, but in the heat of the moment. After watching a video of your parents' murder, which you had always thought was accidental.
[Thor, he thinks, might understand the emotion behind it in a way Bruce wouldn't. Bruce is ruled by logic and reason, while Thor is more emotional. He understands the bonds of family, even family you don't always get along with.]
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So you wanted vengeance. Justice. No matter the cost.
It seems you and I aren't so different after all, Stark.
( he imagines, in the same situation, he would have reacted similarly. (in any situation regarding loki, he would still react similarly now.) what a bunch of hot-headed fools. )
But if it's my judgement you're worried about, you needn't be.
( he just thinks his friends are being dumb mortals? so par for the course, really. please just (kiss and) make up. )
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[ha, ha.]
I made a lot of stupid choices. One of them left Rhodey paralyzed from the waist down. I tried pretty hard to kill Barnes. I still think I was right about the Accords, but- not about how I handled it. Any of it. My mom wouldn't have wanted vengeance. My dad used to know him, back in the war. They were friends. And I took one look at him here, on this ship, and- he was just a tool. He's a broken man who was brainwashed, and all the people who were really responsible for my parents' deaths are dead. I'll never get that justice. I'm still mad about it, because who the fuck wouldn't be? My mother was killed for being in the wrong place at the wrong time.
But none of it was worth it, not with the threat Thanos poses now. Of course, hindsight is twenty-twenty.
[It's easier to tell Thor about it, he discovers in the process of typing. Someone who wasn't on the same planet at the time, someone without an emotional stake in any of it. Someone who's close enough to understand him and his feelings. Tony's spent a lot of time wallowing in self-pity, but that also requires a lot of reflection. He's read the files on Barnes now, and he understands more. And now that he knows what's at stake, it's hard to not realize the magnitude of what went wrong.]